"The moment you accept responsibility for everything in your life is the moment you gain the power to change anything in your life."

- Hal Elrod

I had a huge breakthrough today while talking to my mentor, Melanie.

For a long time, I saw her as this ideal, iconic, badass woman who built a hundred-million-dollar brand.

Someone so far ahead of me that the gap felt impossible to cross. I used to think:

I’m not there yet. It’s too far.

How will I ever get there?

How? How? How?

But during our conversation, something clicked.

She wasn’t born into that version of herself. She grew into it. She went through her own journey.

Her own darkness.

Her own initiation.

And I suddenly saw that where I am today is simply another moment on that same path. I’m not behind. I’m not late. I’m not missing anything.

I’m exactly where I need to be in my own timing. And everything that’s unfolding is unfolding because I am doing the work.

It made me go back and look at my transformation so far.

Because so much happened, and it happened so fast, that I didn’t even register the magnitude of it. I didn’t see how far I had actually come.

And I want to bring this to you, because you may look at me - or anyone you admire - and think:

I’m not there yet. I don’t know how to get there. It feels impossible for me.

I want to show you that I wasn’t at all where I am today.
I want to show you the details of my transformation so you can see yourself in it and realize:if I could rise from where I started, you can absolutely rise into where you are meant to go.

This is the work I do with my clients. I help them get there faster. With clarity, with energy, with alignment.

But for myself, I was still stuck in the old belief that I wasn’t enough yet - until today.

This was the breakthrough of the month. Maybe the year.
And I want to share my story so you can feel what’s possible for you too.

MY STORY

I was born in communist Poland at a time when food was rationed, opportunities scarce, and everything felt heavy. I grew up Catholic and learned very early to fear God instead of trusting.

At home, I often felt overwhelmed. As a little girl, I interpreted raised voices and tension as danger.

I didn’t yet understand human pain, human fear, or human coping mechanisms.

All I knew was that I felt unsafe. And from that, I learned to fear men, to fear relationships, and to fear closeness.

From those early years, three themes shaped the foundation of my inner world:

• Scarcity– the feeling that there was never enough, money was not even on the table

• Fear of God– not understanding that God is love and everything is love

• Fear of men and the patriarchy– the belief that power belonged to others, not me and that men are not providers nor protectors but rather predators
  
  

These became the lenses through which I learned to navigate life.

In my teens, these fears shaped how I behaved.

I felt ashamed of wanting a boyfriend, so I pretended I didn’t.

I acted uninterested because the idea of relationship terrified me.

I stayed single for a long time because closeness felt unsafe, and wanting love felt like weakness.

Academically, I pretended school didn’t matter, even though learning came easily and I loved it.

I was afraid to stand out.

Afraid to be bullied.

Afraid to be rejected.

There was a moment that changed me. I was accused of lying when I had actually told the truth. I defended myself, yet my truth wasn’t believed.

That moment taught me something I carried for years - that telling the truth could cost me connection.

Later, in the corporate world, I saw the same dynamic everywhere. Gossip. Water-cooler politics. People saying one thing and meaning another.

Truth is seen as risky.

Belonging is tied to silence.

I realized that so many environments teach us that honesty is dangerous. It was the same wound, repeating with different faces. I had to unlearn it and rebuild myself with truth as a core value.

Before moving to the Netherlands, I experienced what I now understand was burnout. At the time, in Poland, nobody talked about burnout. I just knew I was exhausted.

I changed jobs, and countries, without fully understanding I was trying to save myself. My body was giving me signs - getting sick when traveling, being unable to get out of bed for days.

That period shook me awake.

I moved to the Netherlands, still driven, still pushing, still performing. But the patterns followed me.

The good girl conditioning. The need to prove myself. The belief I wasn’t enough. And eventually I was heading toward a second burnout(because if nothing changes, nothing changes…). This time, I caught it before it became physical.

In 2018, I attended my first women’s retreat. I thought it was just a vacation, but it opened something. A door. A question. A new awareness.

In 2019, I joined my first coaching program, thinking it was for leadership development. Instead, it showed me how disconnected I had become from myself. It revealed the exhaustion, the frustration, the cost of years of performing. It guided me back home - slowly, steadily, truthfully.

That was the beginning of a journey that has now lasted almost six years - a journey of becoming the woman I always felt inside.

Bit by bit, I shed the shame. The pretending. The fear. The identity built around survival. I stepped into the woman who leads with truth. With presence. With intuition. With integrity.

As I grew, my mission became clear.
All the pain.
All the patterns.
All the loneliness.
All the hunger.
It all became fuel.
It became my purpose.
It became a map.

I became devoted to helping CEOs and business owners build companies with heart, culture, and legacy. Not just profitable companies - conscious ones. I built my business. I built my method. I built my voice.

People found me because I grew. And as I grew, the room grew.

My work expanded. My clients deepened. My brand became magnetic. My message gained power. Leadership met humanity. Strategy met soul.

And prosperity began to flow from alignment, not fear.
I raised my standards in love, in leadership, in life.
And I received the love I once believed I could never have - fully, abundantly, fiercely, joyfully.

I became the woman I once needed.
The leader I once searched for.
The mentor I once prayed for.

And now, this is the work I do every day.
I guide people into their truth.
I help them stop pretending, performing, and living half-lives.
I help them rise.

Everything I lived through prepared me for this.

This is my story.
This is my work.
This is my legacy in motion.

And I am just getting started.

I am speaking at The New York Times TODAY at 9:00 AM!

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